Ok, ok. Here is my POV:
I was walking through the the industrial factory of Vybor, when I noticed a group of people at a fire. I did not want to make contact, as I heard them talking and saying "Continue farming until we say otherwise, pick those apples now" and so he complied. I, being a good person, do not take kindly to people who wish to kidnap innocent people. So, being the nice person I am, I threw a flashbang into the situation to help the man escape ( I did it when I noticed the prisoner go inside) as a chance for them to escape. I didn't notice the man run, so, I decided it would be best to leave on one failed attempt, but, as I was climbing down a ladder of a factory building, 2 men noticed me, and approached with hostile attitudes. I did not like how they seemed shady and rude, but they did let me go. I left for about 5 minutes until returning to see how many people were in the area. I noticed that they were all gathered in the middle of the farming area. So, to cause ANOTHER distraction, I threw a M67 Grenade about 50 ft from where they were standing, next to the factory building across the street, so that the grenade would NOT kill them or hurt anyone. I heard the man scream and run, so I figured thats when it was time to leave. I noticed 3 or 4 walking around me, so, I crouched back down and hid in a chopped down tree. 1 of the men noticed me, and I took out a glock (which was a horrible idea on my part) and he told me to raise my hands, and did not comply. I did pull the trigger and hit one, at that point, I was dead. I was on extremely low blood, and did not want to be in that situation also being the fact I was dying of starvation. I am aware of the "Value your life" rule, but, felt it was time, and pulled an idiotic act. But, the funny part, I actually did NOT know the man, until after when I found him towards NW airfield and asked of his situation, which was after I was killed. I did not return to the scene, as of course as RP follows, you are not suppose to "remember" where you last died. After that, I talked to the man, asking "you look beat up, what happened? and he told me his situation. At that point, I figured out it was this man I saved.
And again, I did realise my mistake, and do realize what I have done. I apologize to Sylvester and friend(s).