I'm actually not sure if the permission to execute needs to come from the one who does it... though it doesn't really matter for what I have to say. I understand that declaring a character as perma death is quite hard sometimes. I always feel sad when one of my characters dies, especially since I always put a lot on efford and emotions in them, but no matter how much I love them, when it comes to a IC happening in which they die, then it will be like that. I'm a huge fan of consequent roleplay, which means that you have to deal with your decisions, your doings and all what happenes after or because of that. In your case as far as I could read it out now, the scene was really really clear for everyone around. One bullet, okay, then it might could be possible that you moved your head though... how does that explain that you were just laying there dead afterwards? No one can hold their breath for eternity, but okay, I don't know what the people were doing afterwards with your corps or how long they were standing there. But with more than one shot in your head... I really don't believe you could bring up a good story how your character survived. Even if she survived the shots, she would never be the same person anymore... she surely would have suffered from any sort of brain damage or anything else, which would make it pretty hard to play with her anymore. And yeah, giving permission to execute for going on a hiatus is now not the best choice anyway in my eyes... a kidnapping or something would have fit more I think, especially when you thought about coming back with her one day. Then you could have thought of a good story what happened, but like this... well I would really advise you to let that character rest in peace. But yeah, that's just my opinion to this topic. You have to decide on your own what you will be doing.

Carina didn’t grow up in Chernarus and doesn’t really know the country that well. She came here with a very good friend, someone she saw as her brother, although the two of them were not blood related. Nevertheless, they traveled to Chernarus, since he wanted to show her where he had been growing up quite a few years. He even had some family around up in the north and a little away from any bigger cities. At first, they just wanted to visit his family and maybe check out the country as far as it was possible. But after just about two weeks, their plans changed lightly. Adrian knew that his aunt was helping out in an orphanage and that certain week, she was moving into an old camp with them to learn some basic stuff about nature and the animals which were living here. Since most of those children didn’t have anyone else to take care of them, he thought it might would be a good idea if Carina would take a look at them. Although she wans’t a real doctor and instead still a student, she knew quite a lot already, especially when it came to first aid. She of course accepted to take a look on the children, making sure they were healthy and maybe bringing some medicine to them, since the orphanage itself didn’t have that much money to be careless about. So they moved up into the camp after a few more weeks of preparation and getting the needed supplies. Carina coulndn’t know, that she wouldn’t be able to see any civilization so soon again. Since they spent quite a lot of time up there, they didn’t really notice that much of the chaos that was slowly about to break out. But soon enough, they knew something was wrong. Instead of checking out what was going on, they stayed in the camp and tried to hide, gathering all supplies they had left to be able to survive a few more weeks, since they believed everything would be over after that time. But it didn’t come to an end. Soon they needed to move, since food was fading and the children started to get hungry. During the moment they moved down to a city, everything changed though. They got attacked by a quite huge group of infected, having of course not really a clue what was going on. The children ran in different directions and so did Carina and Adrian. They ran into a lonely house close to a forest, hiding there in the basement and barricaded the door. Hours passed, in which they could hear the moans and growls of the infected outside, chasing after animals or maybe eben a few of the left children. Carina felt more than bad that she couldn’t help any of them, but opening that door could mean their death. She knew it and still Adrian every time again needed to talk to her about it, reminding her that they couldn’t help them either if they died right here and now. A few days later, as it finally got silent outside, Adrian decided to check out the surroundings, telling Carina that she should stay in the basement and wait for him to get her. But that never happened… Carina waited a few days… maybe a week or more, she couldn’t really tell. But it was a fact, that Adrian didn’t come back. It still took a few more days for the young girl to dare to move outside, seeing the new world she was forced to live in. At first, she couldn’t really realize or accept what she was seeing, everything just looked so unreal in her eyes, like someone had pushed her into a bad horror movie. Scared, confused and having no clue where Adrian was, she decided to just move… after all wouldn’t she be able to find out what is going on, if she stayed in the basement. Her first goal ? Finding Adrian… An old photo of her and Adrian... as the world was still normal

Entry 3 Silently grabs Emily her notepad, making sure to not disturb her company in any way. First she looked at the pages she already wrote something down, before she starts writing. I know in what kind of situation I will get myself into and I know it won’t end good. Maybe I don’t understand the whole conversation the two of them had, but I understood enough to know, that this is just dangerous. Alice seems at least like she’s able to defend herself, but in my case… I don’t even want to think about it. Turning around and leaving is no option. As long as Alice wants to keep this path, I will follow her. I chose this way already since the night we met back there in the house where I was actually ready to die. I told her that… and even more, though I’m not sure if she really understood what I was talking about. Well of course not… because I didn’t tell her the whole truth. Some things are not meant to be shared with others, even though sometimes it would make things a lot easier. I guess I won’t be able to sleep the next few days. Not that I sleep often or long anyway, but right now is just too much going on in my head. This guy… his voice and even his behaviour just creeps me out. But I guess this wasn’t the first and last time I saw him. Alice seems interested in him and partly I can even understand why. I’m not in the position to tell her she should better stay away, although sometimes I really would like to do it. But I’m just the white rabbit. A white rabbit has not the power to do something about the Jabberwocky. I know that, although I’m asking myself why I suddenly started to use those nicknames as well. Well, can’t be helped. I guess the best thing I can do is hoping, that both of them are not suddenly changing their interests. Although I will do everything to help Alice, since that’s the only thing that counts for me, I’m not really fond of getting in this strange game. Though I guess I’m sadly already part of it. Anything that can go wrong will go wrong… Murphy’s Law. Maybe I should just accept it A low sigh leaves her lips while she puts the notepad back into her backpack, her eyes shortly moving over to Alice.