My Turn

[Guest]

I guess, it's my turn for a time out huh? 

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Long story short, recently, I've been going through a lot of stress for something I don't even know why ever get that? Being stressed over something that doesn't or shouldn't exist? Anyway, it's been causing me to act very recklessly on the forums, in staff chat and even with people in TeamSpeak, perhaps it's the fucked up sleep pattern, perhaps it's me just having my period or something, I don't know. It got me kicked from staff, it got people complaining about me having aids attitude to the staff. And I don't really blame them, I've been extra insensitive lately when it comes down to many topics. 

Other than that, this community is starting to loose it's grip on me, I'm barely interested in roleplay, I can't be bothered to do anything useful or provide even mediocre roleplay to others, even my attitude in game seems a lot more insensitive as if I really cant be bothered about other people anymore. I lost touch with the game for a while now, and now it feels like I'm starting to lose my grip on what I thought this community was to me. Really it's not anyone's fault but my own, I guess some people left the same way. Having to sit through all the OOC drama, all the bickering between people. I use to say DayZRP is like highschool, everyone is separated by something but connected by one thing, you see people who come in from all kinds of backgrounds,  convicts, war vets, students, doctors, parents what not. Lately, it's starting to show everything I hate about highschool, the cliques, the separation, the constant bitching and bickering. I guess the spark is gone for me, the honeymoon phase is gone and I'm starting to see the little things that I dislike in this community. 

Sooner or later this mindset is going to get myself permed so hey, it's as good of a time as any to take a time out. With that said, I'm going to disappear from this community until the spark eventually reignite or I whip myself back to shape, whichever one comes first. After all, if I want to come back and not get perma-banned, I need to change my little insensitive ideology and adjust it to what is considered acceptable in the west. Different backgrounds I guess haha. Plus, this would be good for me, I think I need to reschedule my whole life, my  routines, start preparing for the army, get a job and accomplish more goals that I want to accomplish before I give the next 2 years of my life to the government. 

I love everyone in this community, no matter how little I show it, how insensitive I can be or if I act like I dislike you, each and every one of you are pillars, little support columns that made DayZRP what it is. 

To the remains fo the Reapers, most of us are gone, some of us are scattered, some cut ties with one another, but the time I shared with you guys is something I will never forget. You took a little RP white name in and shaped him to be a mediocre role player. I never had a chance to thank any of you guys for that, and now most of us are gone, permed or just gone. So to the remains, Chow, Randle, Kodiak, Clare, Blitz, Mark, Reece, Scott, Dimitri, Donavan, and whoever I missed, thank you.

To the faceless, Redsky and Tucker in general, I thanked you a million times and I don't think I can thank you anymore. The two biggest, dumbest motherfuckers I know <3 I love the hours we spend together, making plans, playing chess and little games here and there. It was the first time I felt satisfied with the roleplay since the end of the Reapers.

To the Serverni, you bitches. I'm gonna to miss you guys the most, mainly cause I spend almost every day with you guys. I'm sure somehow and somewhere I'll still be dragged to play ARMA, insurgency, and other games with Mohawk, Red and Franko. Somehow, I don't know how. Thanks for the month and a half, I would thank you for the month after that but I became an insensitive dick. <3 

To my favorite roleplaying couple, Spartan and Ron. Or Nora and Mary, you two are just fucking crazy, the best roleplayers I know in this server and hell, the two who unknowningly created the Kenway Lee or Mr Fortune we see today. I owe most of my character development to you guys. And Ron, thanks for the advice ;)

To my friends, Mak, Zero, Kenji, RedSky, Mohawk, Mark, Scouser, Flashcrack, Slash, Spartan, Ron, Blackfyre, Scott. Meekor, Gamine, Shikaka, BostonDonut, Mr.Diamond, Randle, Helix, Jewell, Storm, Medicine, Oy, Tucker, Zoyo, whoever the hell I spend time with or I chatted with. I only got 2 words for you guys, 

THANKING YOU

Lastly to the Staff team, hell what can I say, I love my time in staff no matter how brief it was, I'm not going to make up any excuses for my behavior. The only thing I have to say about that is that I phrased it wrongly like I always do, I'm not exactly what they call opened minded, and when I get stressed I tend to speak my beliefs in a harsher, more insensitive tone than usual. But I enjoyed my time there, 2 months to the community is more than what I can ask for. Thanks for giving me a shot and hopefully in my time as a community helper, I did what I could have done to the community. After all, that is the goal of a staff member, to do what they can for the community in their time there. But just in case, I have one request from the staff, until I'm ready to return to the community, can you please revoke my posting rights? Thanking you

Well, I said my piece, and I hope the rest of you guys have a nice day and well a little homage to my main character,

"May Fortune Be With You"

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[Nightngale]

Wow, didn't expect this. o7 man

[Ramon]

Hyde, good luck in RL!

Maybe till another time

[Mademoiselle]

Nooo! Don't leave me!!!

[Samaritan]

Peace out Hyde, we all need a break from time to time. Take a step back and re-assess things, you'll know when you're ready to return.

o7 bud.

[Guest Covert]

No shout out to The Brotherhood? I see how it is Kenny. Good luck man, hope you find that spark.

[Franko]

What!

Now I'm even MORE depressed, thanks...

Jk <3 Take a break, have some tea, have some weed :troll:

Cya later friend <3 <3 <3

[BostonRP]

I'll miss you man. 

No matter what you said or did while you were in staff, you were definitely a help, and that's what counts. Stay safe and if you need anything, you know where to find me.

Come back when you're ready. 

o7 

-BostonDonut

[Terra]

Sad to see you go Hyde <3

[DarkSide]

Take care Hyde!!

[Guest Max]

Cya, man.

[Whiskey]

Sad to see you go man, will always love you my Forum Game friend <3 I'll be waiting for when you return, good luck with RL man

Take it easy, o7 buddy

P.S. I'll 'take care' of you kingdom don't you worry....

[Volke]

Take care Hyde, we will both return as golden gods.

[Brodie]

Sad to see you go, I hope you come back Hyde, spent alot of time with you in the past, but didn't get to spend so much as of recent, unfortunitely, but anyways, take care Hyde, love you man, o7 <3

[Oisin]

Jesus man im sad to see you go  love ya really do maybe a break is for the best tho  gonna miss you bud! I'm always around feel free to give us a shout!

Love you man, take it easy.

[Guest]

Oh no..

Alrighty then. best of luck Hyde

I'll be waiting.

[Scouser]

07 Kenny, gonna miss annoying your sorry arse, remember I am always here and ready to fight you

[Brad]

A hell of a honest leaving thread, respect.  Take some time and come back better than ever.

[Guest]

"Another one." -DJ Khaled

[Jacob Page]

Ahh man rip....

[Emerald Knight]

Take care Hyde!

[Slash]

No... Why... Kenny!

Hey, fella thank you for the times we RP'ed, discussed or joked together! You are a great guy and it's sad to see you go! Take it easy fella and good luck in the real world!

Take care.

o7

[Defiance]

A strong man is one that can point out his weaknesses.

Adios, Hyde.

[Mohawk]

*Smacks hydes ass* I shall miss you in rp, but you will never see the end of me

[Nocheluz]

I understand it, but that doesn't make me any less sad. I respect your honesty and insight.

We go way back on those FGs and now staff. I'll miss you and look forward to when you get back Mr. Fortune.