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Guest Katherine   
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So, I've been thinking lately, with the way things are happening with my life.. Or rather lack of thinking. But pretty much, I don't know who really to actually talk to, So i'm throwing this out here.

Here is the Dilemma I'm facing

I'll start with a list of real life problems and later go into detail about each and everyone and then i'll wrap with it and wait for replies for any further comments or concerns. I typically hide it well, You may not know, Because i've very adept at hiding things unless i want to reveal them, Here is the time i finally reveal some of them.

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Real life -

-HOCD

-Job

-Social Anxiety

-Nightmares, Making me feel exhausted all day.

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Okay, Thats not all of the issues but the ones i'm willingly to openly express and convey the best i can.

HOCD

Starters, My Form of Obsessive Compulsive Order is coming back to me, I can't get one day without compusing. It always a internal struggle and ends up making me feel mentally strained, As i cannot think or really feel any other emotion its always stress, Panic Attacks. I cannot even truly love something i love because of this i feel. Some i asked would call it "Depression" But, All i know is i can't feel the feeling of Joy, Happy. It feels so bland and repetitive, Not even boredom.

I been continuing to try my lessons i picked from Cognitive Behaviour Therapy a long time ago, And taking SSRI, But that was a year ago. It is a huge problem that i can't seem to eradicate.. If anyone has been through OCD and can elaborate. I appreciate it.

Job

- Job, Now this is a pain in the dick at times. Where i work at, For only being at a part time job at McDonalds to collect some spare money for my benefits, Its been stressful. They won't teach me Anything in the kitchen other than fires, Worst of all whenever it gets busy, I am the one to get blamed for not having a billion fries on back up because some dick head wanted 14 large fries. I'm almost at my wits end and my trainer isn't even training me, All she manages to do is find some miniscule issue and magnifies it. She only seems to do it when its my time to clock out. Going to report it to my manager when i can. But i doubt really its going to do anything.

How would you handle it? Not just the pressure of soloing but dealing with someone up your ass not even helping you, Just yelling some arbitrary number and size of fries?

Social Anxiety

With that, Comes some Social Anxiety, I can't really handle large groups of people by my own because i can't look people in the eyes i mostly look away or find a excuse to walk away. It doesn't mean i'm shy just when it comes to randoms I can't really just open myself up all too well, Even though i am friendly, Approachable and generally coherent and elegant.

Nightmares- Now these have only been going on for a week, But most of them are consisting me and another me, I'm usually running and being taunted by my other self. Saying things like "You can't hide from facts" Or "I know you too well" Swear, I remember one time in the dream i was being chased and then all of sudden i was picked up and eaten and then i woke up, Jolting in my bed. I don't feel well rested and i feel barely awake. They also seem to be getting worse, Last night i was tortured, It felt real as fuck. I kind of haven't talk to anyone else really about this kind of nightmares i'm having. How can you guys make them stop? I heard somewhere nightmares are a reflection of your Anxiety, Fear, Anger. Just want to get a decent rest for once.

Sorry, For any grammatical issues, I couldn't sleep too well and i decided to type this out I'm looking forward to some replies. As i also stated these are the only troublesome issues, Just the ones i feel safe publicly posting.

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Homie, I'm not good at written word but ay boy, Check your PM when wake up and Ill try and help ya out dog. I deal all those issues but the job thing so i feel I will be able to relate.

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Homie, I'm not good at written word but ay boy, Check your PM when wake up and Ill try and help ya out dog. I deal all those issues but the job thing so i feel I will be able to relate.

Lol, Amount of fucks Community members care about this thread is unreal.

Yeah, I got your PM i sent you one. Sorry i couldn't talk to you sooner, Work and all.

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Homie, I'm not good at written word but ay boy, Check your PM when wake up and Ill try and help ya out dog. I deal all those issues but the job thing so i feel I will be able to relate.

Lol, Amount of fucks Community members care about this thread is unreal.

Yeah, I got your PM i sent you one. Sorry i couldn't talk to you sooner, Work and all.

Most folk would flock the thread if you were a Girll

Anyway for myself i cant help for sure unexperience around these things.

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Homie, I'm not good at written word but ay boy, Check your PM when wake up and Ill try and help ya out dog. I deal all those issues but the job thing so i feel I will be able to relate.

Lol, Amount of fucks Community members care about this thread is unreal.

Yeah, I got your PM i sent you one. Sorry i couldn't talk to you sooner, Work and all.

Most folk would flock the thread if you were a Girll

Anyway for myself i cant help for sure unexperience around these things.

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Of course i'm a girl ;)

But seriously though, Today i was called in by my manager so i could get out earlier, First thing i heard after she comes in and i enter the back room to place a drink for later is. "Why aren't you working" As she sits on her fat ass chugging down her fanta and eating doritos, I almost suffered a brain aneurysm and left and make 5 small fries.

Got into small piss arguments, Its going to stop from her one way or another. Otherwise its going to get ugly.. But on a positive note, Most coworkers of mine are friends and get along great, They also don't really like her or dislike working with her at the least because of her attitude.

- I edited the title, Maybe then more people can weigh in.


Also, Catherine for me has been a big coping mechanism that helps me relate to issues, Even if they aren't inherent related. Its about a game of self discovery. Try to end the nightmare and find True Freedom.

Its one of the best crafted video game art, To ever exist. Everything this game is make it a testament to the real issues of ordinary people. Infidelity, Commitment, Cheating, Despair, Anxiety.

I could go on for hours about how the game makes me feel, But these are just snippets of things that are the reason why i named myself Katherine. Pick it up sometime.

I think i will live stream it and beat it fully on Normal one of these days so stay toon.

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First off here's some subreddits you might find helpful.

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialanxiety

http://www.reddit.com/r/OCD

http://www.reddit.com/r/self

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialskills

Regarding the eye contact thing, a thread I found on r/socialskills.

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialskills/comments/2hj4ya/7_steps_to_better_eye_contact/

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First of all, do you actually have OCD (or HOCD), have you been diagnosed or is this a self-diagnosis? From what you've been saying it doesn't sound like OCD, but if you've been acc diagnosed then w/e. But if you do, then I know how annoying OCD can be, and painful. I had it a lot worse a year/two ago and now there's only a few I have now but they're pretty much gone and not affecting me anymore. I realised my OCDs would get a lot worse when I'm stressed out (idk why). Maybe you might have the same with your job.

With your job you should probably just talk to your manager, it sounds really shitty that you're not getting taught. So you should probably just speak to your manager, tell all the stuff you told us and ask for a trainer who actually trains you.

With the social anxiety you should definitely check out some of those sub reddits, when walking up to the big group one thing a lot of people do is "fake it until you make it". Pretend to be that person who you want to be (whether that be confident, easy to talk to, etc). If you dislike big groups that's not entirely bad, a lot of people dislike big groups and prefer smaller ones. Even if that can be more about confidence, try it out. :)

I dunno about your nightmares and I can't relate to them because I rarely remember my dreams, instead of relying on your memory you could have a pen and paper next to you at night and as soon as you wake up, write down what you dreamt. If you say that they reflect what you might be thinking/feeling then try look into that I guess. :)

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First off here's some subreddits you might find helpful.

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialanxiety

http://www.reddit.com/r/OCD

http://www.reddit.com/r/self

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialskills

Regarding the eye contact thing, a thread I found on r/socialskills.

http://www.reddit.com/r/socialskills/comments/2hj4ya/7_steps_to_better_eye_contact/

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First of all, do you actually have OCD (or HOCD), have you been diagnosed or is this a self-diagnosis? From what you've been saying it doesn't sound like OCD, but if you've been acc diagnosed then w/e. But if you do, then I know how annoying OCD can be, and painful. I had it a lot worse a year/two ago and now there's only a few I have now but they're pretty much gone and not affecting me anymore. I realised my OCDs would get a lot worse when I'm stressed out (idk why). Maybe you might have the same with your job.

With your job you should probably just talk to your manager, it sounds really shitty that you're not getting taught. So you should probably just speak to your manager, tell all the stuff you told us and ask for a trainer who actually trains you.

With the social anxiety you should definitely check out some of those sub reddits, when walking up to the big group one thing a lot of people do is "fake it until you make it". Pretend to be that person who you want to be (whether that be confident, easy to talk to, etc). If you dislike big groups that's not entirely bad, a lot of people dislike big groups and prefer smaller ones. Even if that can be more about confidence, try it out. :)

I dunno about your nightmares and I can't relate to them because I rarely remember my dreams, instead of relying on your memory you could have a pen and paper next to you at night and as soon as you wake up, write down what you dreamt. If you say that they reflect what you might be thinking/feeling then try look into that I guess. :)

I've been confirmed from both actual Psychiatrist and various test, I've also took CBT and Took SSRI's in the past. Just recently i've been stressed out.

http://ocdspecialists.com/2013/04/jon-hershfield-mft-on-hocd-sexual-orientation-ocd-part-one/

http://www.ocdla.com/gay-ocd-hocd-test.html

http://www.brainphysics.com/hocd-articles

As for the job? I'm reporting the trainer and calling her out on her shit. She will get in deep shit, If she doesn't stop, I will give you an update when i can. or further elaborate it in a bit.

As for the nightmares, The best way i can give you a visual look is through the Catherine Boss Battle of 'Shadow of Vincent' [video=youtube]

The boss only, Not the blocks nor anything other than that, Its been going on for quite sometime and it revolves around me being tortured or taunted some shit. The boss is a representative of Vincent's facade and anxiety, His lies as well. Mine is more about my anxieties and its unclear really what my other dream person looks like myself. But i guess this puts it more into context. (Vincent the main Character in Catherine*

Social Anxiety only affects me really, When i'm cashier and were really busy typically or at festivals, I will read over a little bit when i can with the Reddit links you provided. I also have been writing sort of a dream journal recently. Last nights dream was a fear of fucking up at work and my other self causing issues, Harassing me.

- Thanks for the comment, Hope you can make some sense of this convoluted mess.

:)

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