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Journal of Caduceus Rose [Feedback Welcomed]

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Well I found this dusty damned thing in Cherno so might as well right in it before I die maybe someone will read about me decide that they care about who I was, Nah who am I kidding nobody would or will ever care but writing helps me so im going to wright in this old book when ever im not getting shot or ran over. Heres a picture of me so you see me before I became that corpse your most likley looting, Yeah Thats me in a field contemplating blowing my brains out with an M16...

Day 1

Well today started off Normally I woke up looked around contemplated suicide, the usual. I managed to run into a group of mercenaries who did hero work though a group called SCORPIO, I joined up with them hung out with them and one of the members gave me a tractor with some gear in it. I talked to a friend of mine named David and another named Eric but soon I heard of some broken down red van outside the post filled with gear and magical wishes, or something I dont remember I was on morphine to help ease the pain from getting hit by a truck the other day. CTC had the rights to the Van so I traded the tractor for the broken down Van filled with gear, After I took first pick of the gear I told everyone in Trade post that everything in the van was up for grabs after an hour or so everyone had stripped the van dry so we decided to blow the thing to hell, we pumped so many rounds into it it blew up in around 10 seconds it was cool as hell, and by that I mean the flames and smoke were making us cough and choke. Later David,Eric, and I went to Navy Sobor on a food supply run we all loaded up and grabbed some nuts and canned pasta, Sounds gross but to me it was like gourmet cuisine after eating raw rabbit and expired chips. When our trio got back to Trade post there was atleast 200 zeds at the gate everyone started opening fire I rushed to the front lines with my LMG and started firing I must have killed around 8 to 14 I walked off and took a drink and ate some pasta before the second wave hit before I could get over to the gate the second wave was killed. Now I write this journal entry from the top floor of a trade post building before I sleep, and start a new day hopefully it wont be my last... Then again part of me hopes it will.

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Nice bro hope to read more!

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Well before I continue on with my Journal I should tell you about myself so you can know more about that corpse your looted to find this journal, My name is Caduceus Rose, Yeah "Funny name" I know, I was born in the Czech Republic I am or at least I was, A combat Medic in the military, I came over the Chernarus assigned as a Military escort along side a group of UN doctors on a Humanitarian Aid mission in the war torn region of Chernaurus, I was helping deliver food,Water,medicine, even toys to a children refugee camp in northern Chernarus, but thats when the zeds attacked, The soldiers tried to defend the camp but to no avail, a stray bullet hit a 30 Liter Fuel can and set the entire camp alight, I tried to charge into the inferno to save the children, I suffered severe burns all over my body especially my face, I pulled the children out of the fire but, DAMNIT im such a failure! The kids died from smoke suffocation, I got burned and I couldnt save them, I hate myself now, I contemplate suicide most of the time im not being shot at, Im looking for a reason to live and I hope if you took this off my corpse, I managed to find that reason before either You or someone else Killed me.

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Day 2

Today feels like im back in the army, Mission breifing tanks, Operations, saving wounded, Hell I even killed my first Human being today, well that is if you can even consider a council bastard a human anymore. Well to start off I joined these guys called the Black crosses and managed to trade some gear to complete my first task for them. After that I hung out with my two close friends, Erik, and David, everything was all fine untill a massive operation against the council got launched, Erik and I jumped Up at the chance to destroy a tank assaulting CTC and Survivor forces. We moved out To take it out but the council had 2 choppers so that forced us to hit the deck plenty of times by the time we reached the tank we had to jump in a bush to hide from them but Erik was spotted and ran off but the tank had to move on, so a Council hopped out from it to pursue Erik and ran past the bush I was in I popped out and gunned the bastard down, Nobody kills my friends without me ripping their guts out,After that I ran back to Trade post but I lost sight of Erik I searched all of TP for him but he was nowhere but Luckily after a debrief from CTC he returned alive, shortly afterwards some cocky kid started insulting all of CTC and held a Lee En field at a CTC guys head so CTC mowed the guy down and died which I found hilarious. Well that was my day Im glad it was not my last for once Im satisfied

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Day 3

Well Todays been mixed I guess you could say, The Black Crosses are posibly finding a home, as well as me winning a sort of lottery, There was a Colonel, guy raffling off his tractor if you guessed a number, I won the Tractor and stripped it for gear, All my friends are going on a long trip around Chernarus looking for gear my buddy Erik is gonna possibly find me a new toy out there, But also some normal Depressing things happened, Some poor bastard got infected started coughing up blood and died next to his friends, Then they had to put a round in his skull to make sure the poor kid didn't get up again as one of those monsters, Im all loaded up now, Im now sitting by my red tractor listening to some guy playing his guitar as my friends all load up for their big adventure, I cut forearm 3 times again, then cauterized the wounds shut over the fire, So Im still depressed obviously but my Pyrophobia seems to be increasing Yeah, I have a fear of fire and ironically I burn myself intentionally, I try and conquer my fear but it only gets worse, I still am searching, Looking, Desperately, for that one thing, My one goal, My reason to live

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Day 3.5

Well a few things, Apparently Im racist for assuming a guy was Somalian, My friend Erik intentionally burned my shoulder despite knowing I suffer from Pyrophobia, Oh also I donated my second tractor to CTC today, I don't know how Erik views me I just hope he considers me a friend too, I don't want to die friendless and alone in this hell, Im still in pain it hurts to wright from all the burns on my arm now, Fuck I need to stop writing for the day, Ill right in this damned book tomorrow.

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I guess I should say more about who I used to be, I went to school in the United States because my family was starving back in the Czech Republic, We had no money, No food, No way out...Legally, We built a large raft like the Cubans did to escape as well, We drifted to sea, Not knowing if we would ever die from dehydration at sea or just get swept back to our ruined home, After a few weeks my brother died on the raft from dehydration, he drank the salt water which only made him more thirsty, he became delirious and jumped of the raft I never saw him again, Thinking of it still gives me shivers I never want to go crazy like he did so now I carry water around with me everywhere. We washed ashore in America, My father and mother managed to get jobs as Pharmaceutical workers which paid them well, They put me through school and sent me to medical school when I turned 18, When I turned 20 there was a school shooting at my school....My parents died in it, they only wanted to surprise me with a visit.... GOD FUCKING DAMMIT! I couldn't stay in the US anymore I quickly finished the Semester in Med school and moved back to the Czech Republic to try and start again, With the money I inherited from my parents I bought a new home and soon joined the 601st Czech Paratroopers division as a Combat Medic, I served in Mogadashu along side UN personnel as well as provided Humanitarian aid in several countries along side the UN again. Well that's my fucked up childhood, I hope to god whoever is looting my corpse and reading this is literate...It seems most people that run around Chernarus now can barley speak properly let alone read...

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Day 4

Eriks not back from his expedition yet...The Trade post is heavy with a Grim attitude and and aura of death surrounds the place....Council came with a tank, A BT-3 I think...Well a good amount of people died but then boohoo the moody bitches started crying over there friends around the fire...I mean who cries over death anymore.....Theres literally walking corpses everywhere every bodies lost friends and family you would expect people not to be such little bitches anymore but yeah... I threatened to pop 20 rounds into some ass hats fucking skull today I put a round in his ass eventually and wandered back to the Post. People started talking about love again around the fire and the usual guy meets girl romance crap happened again I don't know weather its jealousy or pure emotional detachment that makes me hate love... I removed most of my bandages today and took off my old uniform... The Black Cross is making me wear a new uniform....It's a black Mercenary PMC outfit with a skull Balaclava and a Black beret....I hate the change but I guess it will have to do.... Yeah so basically in a short summary Fuck people, Love, and cowards.....


//Rose Is incredibly lonley and everyone he tries to be nice to forgets him so he needs some new friends :/ Im at TP roleplaying alot of the time Im up for quick scav runs around chernarus if anybody wants to be Rose's first friend that legit cares about him at all...

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Day 4.5

I was hanging out with some people again, A guys named Michio and another named tiddles... Well we went on a drive around the coastline and hit up a few hospitals I got a fuckload of meds and blood bags from them, we almost got swarmed by 70 or more zeds... Jesus Michio was fucking shaking in the car they broke his god damn legs... Poor kid he got out alive though. My new friend Dr. Amanda Nightingale kept running into us when we were driving around... Atleast I think shes my friend....Seems like im too quick to call people that now god im fucking pathetnic. I managed to get CTC 3 cars today so there was that oh and I also got shot 3 fucking times by some guy in the forest needless to say he got a magazine of an RPK to the god damn face. Some nice girl named Sabrina was playing a guitar by the fire she seemed cute but im a worthless failure of a human being so I have no true hopes... The fires warm just like on the day I fucked up my life... Just like that day this shit all happened....I just want to fucking sleep forever....

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Day 4.5

I was hanging out with some people again, A guys named Michio and another named tiddles... Well we went on a drive around the coastline and hit up a few hospitals I got a fuckload of meds and blood bags from them, we almost got swarmed by 70 or more zeds... Jesus Michio was fucking shaking in the car they broke his god damn legs... Poor kid he got out alive though. My new friend Dr. Amanda Nightingale kept running into us when we were driving around... Atleast I think shes my friend....Seems like im too quick to call people that now god im fucking pathetnic. I managed to get CTC 3 cars today so there was that oh and I also got shot 3 fucking times by some guy in the forest needless to say he got a magazine of an RPK to the god damn face. Some nice girl named Sabrina was playing a guitar by the fire she seemed cute but im a worthless failure of a human being so I have no true hopes... The fires warm just like on the day I fucked up my life... Just like that day this shit all happened....I just want to fucking sleep forever....

FTFY

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Day 4.5

I was hanging out with some people again, A guys named Michio and another named tiddles... Well we went on a drive around the coastline and hit up a few hospitals I got a fuckload of meds and blood bags from them, we almost got swarmed by 70 or more zeds... Jesus Michio was fucking shaking in the car they broke his god damn legs... Poor kid he got out alive though. My new friend Dr. Amanda Nightingale kept running into us when we were driving around... Atleast I think shes my friend....Seems like im too quick to call people that now god im fucking pathetnic. I managed to get CTC 3 cars today so there was that oh and I also got shot 3 fucking times by some guy in the forest needless to say he got a magazine of an RPK to the god damn face. Some nice girl named Sabrina was playing a guitar by the fire she seemed cute but im a worthless failure of a human being so I have no true hopes... The fires warm just like on the day I fucked up my life... Just like that day this shit all happened....I just want to fucking sleep forever....

FTFY

///Whats that stand for?

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Day 4.5

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///Whats that stand for?

Fixed that for you, It was Tiddles not Tibbles

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Day 4.5

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FTFY

///Whats that stand for?

Fixed that for you, It was Tiddles not Tibbles

I edited it Lol tibbles is like a kitten name glad your reading my journal :D

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Day 4.9

Its midnight now....Im being held captive in the back of some fuckers hatchback...I can hear them talking of killing me.... Im going to fucking slaughter them and If I have to walk over a mountain of bodies from enemies I slay to get home I will fucking do it... Im not going to die at the hands of these fuckers.... I may not right in this journal for the day...I may be on the move to much tonight.....escaping and all...

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Day 5 I escaped those fuckers.... Council guys shot the driver of the car I was in, the car veered off the road and smashed into a tree the other guy died I opened the door and took all my shit back from the car plus a fuckload of new med supplies Im like a walking hospital now, I walked back to Trade post to find it being gassed by the council, I linked up with some other guys and the 6 of us got pinned down at the back gate by a sniper, I ran out alone after 10 minutes of being pinned down, I flanked behind the treeline and managed to spot a council guy I fired a full mag of my RPK at him before reloading and ducking back into the forest, This RPK has served me well over the past week but I need a better machinegun soon, A western one preferrably....Maybe I might kill for one...Maybe I will trade, No clue what path I should choose but killing seems easier, Killing makes everything easier these days

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Gotta start keeping track of my friends in this thing

Sabrina Hayes

Dr Amanda Nightingale- Sorta

David Sanderson- King Kiss Ass the third

Erik Hegarty- Pyschopathic Partner in crime

Ben Hayes- My leader

Chris Solanum- Hes cool

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Day 6

Woke up today today to find it freezing cold outside, Cerberus hit me with a van today I barley survived But the funny thing is a somalian bandaged me and helped me... Last night I almost died I went out killing zeds and I got beaten to an inch of my life by the zeds but I managed to bandage myself just in time to save what minute blood I probably had left in me at the time, I hauled into the free medic zone and Dr. Nightingale saved my life so I was incredibly lucky, My buddy tim also got abducted last night, they fired a mag into him Jesus I hope that they missed most of the shots, Well Im drawing a picture in my journal I dont know why but I Just feel like it


The initial decline of Madness.....

I dont know why Im so fucked up.... I dont know why I dont pop around in my own skull....None of my friends give a shit about me...Nobody fucking does! God fucking damnit I just want to die im fucking worthless! Nobody gives a fuck!..... Maybe.....Maybe the zeds understand.....Maybe they can be my friends! Maybe they will fucking LISTEN and fucking UNDERSTAND ME!!!!! Nobody else does.....Maybe they are the ones survivng against us! Maybe they're the fucking good guys! We are the monsters not them! NONONONO!!!!!!! What the fuck am I saying they are flesh eating fucking monsters....But maybe we are too....... Im dead inside.....The dead ones would understand me...Maybe I should try and speak to them! Maybe they will care! They always chase me around and want to bite me but maybe its only because they want to talk to me and befriend me! No...That can't be it nobody would ever befriend me! they are always watching me just to fucking laugh at me and hurt me... The dead and the living both hate me and they are the same! That must be it! They want me dead because they know I know........


//// hopefully everyone enjoys Caduceus rapid dissent into batshit crazy land do to the fact nobody gives the slightest shit about him feed back is always welcome :D


They are always watching me......

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Day 7?

Some people say I'm depressed and lonley, Some say Im cold and brutal with no heart, others say I am warm and kind, but all say in one way or another I'm fucked up. I myself don't know who I am anymore, I can be cold like the killer I was trained to be, but also warm like the medic I was destined to be. I help people and hurt people along the way, I'm happy and depressed WHAT AM I!!!!!! Why Am I like this! GOD DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wan't to die but I can't let myself die... Wait a second, That's it! I found my reason.... My reason to live, I will not die untill I right my wrongs and wrong my rights, I will be the balance... For every good I will be an evil and for every evil I will be the good, The FUCKING FLESH EATERS BROKE THE SCALE! They unbalanced everything, So did the council! GOD DAMNIT! I will not fucking DIE untill EVERY LAST FUCKING ZED AND COUNCIL MOTHER FUCKER IS LYING IN A POOL OF THEIR OWN ENTRAILS! Shhh Rosey Shhhhh hush now calm down... It takes a calm clear head to seem normal when we know EXACTLY what you really think in your head! We must keep the balance of life and death, good and evil, Salvation and Damnation, I will balance the scales... I now have my purpose..... The voice is fading, Now that I have my drive, My desire My goal, The voice of madness is gone from me. I am The Cold night and the warm day, The last thing you will love and hate, But above all, I am The Rose as Black as your heart....

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Bound in blood and oath with my brothers and sisters I shall fight for true equalibrium, honor, Comradery, the RIGHT to live and fight another day, I will not die in the dark but shout and burn bright I am a survivor I will not die. Im the Rose on your casket, as well as the corsage on your happiest of days

//Feedback is always appreciated please give your opinions guys c:

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