I am the result of being with nature.
I don’t know why I thought I could help her brother come back to life but I really believed it... until I saw him with my own eyes.
He was already taken into the hands of the gods. He was one with nature but regardless of my beliefs, I could not tell her that.
I knew it would hurt her and it was already a difficult time for her, her mother and her brothers father.
I did what I felt was the right thing. I spoke to my gods and asked for his safe return to them.
Being in this country felt wrong. Even on the plane I already felt a storm coming. A storm of life and death. I could feel the elements; fire, water, air, earth and spirit.
I grew up with only my mum. She worked hard so I can have the best life possible. I was free. She raised me to be open-minded, thinking for myself, making my own decisions.
She told me to believe in myself and to trust my own feelings. She always told me to trust the vibes I get. "Energy doesn’t lie", she used to say.
I miss her. She would know what to do right now.
Thea does not believe in what I believe but she asked me to come with her and I wanted to support her. She is my best friend and I love her.
I wanted to leave right after we buried Thea's brother but she didn't seem ready to leave her brother in the ground at this point. So we stayed a bit longer, not knowing what was coming.
After Thea's brother died, I thought the feelings I had on the plane when flying over here was because I could already feel that Bohdan won't survive. Now I think I could feel the energy of the tragedy that is happening right now.
Thea is strong, but this situation hit us both while we were already weakened. I try to be strong for her but I am terrified and scared. Are the gods punishing us?
My mum and Thea are the only people I trust fully and I could not think of anyone else being trapped here with me.