Sarah comes originally from Norway but she has lived in Chernarus for many years with her fiance, who was part of the military. She spent a lot of time alone because of that. She was pretty young when she ran from her family in Norway. She was very rebellious when she was young. Didn't care about anything but herself and what she wanted, so when she was sixteen years old she packed some of her stuff and traveled as far as she could. She meets a young man she fell madly in love with, not for the right reasoning though. She stayed at his house most of the time, even when he wasn't home which he rarely was.
The beginning of the end
I don't know what's happening but I don't plan to find out either. Things are falling apart, all the chaos. I have so many questions but nobody is here to answer them. I guess I just have to figure things out on my own. I was quite quick at gathering my stuff, even my fiance's pistol. He was not home as usual so he won't be needing it. I found a cabin in the forest that seems quite safe but I don't know yet.
I had to go out to gather some food today.. I wish I never did.. I meet a man. Never met anybody like him before, not in a good way. Can't really say I have ever met a batshit crazy before, but I think I have now.. I tried to get away from him but I failed and he managed to capture me. I have checked and tried all ways possible to get away, but all have failed, it's almost like he has been doing this before. He knows what I'm thinking even before I even do anything it seems like. But I won't give up.. I will get out of here one way or another.
I'm so confused and conflicted about this man.. I know he is crazy because he told me his obsession about blood and that's why he wanted me in the first place but he told me he had changed his mind, he wants me to be like him. Should I pretend to be what he wants me to be to prevent him from hurting me? I feel trapped and lost at the same time. I didn't get a choice in any matter.. He forced me to drink blood but after he was kind enough to give me a drink of water. Surprisingly I felt sick after, never been sick like that before.. Is there some truth in what he is saying? There is no way he could have put something in the drink, I saw him drink earlier. Maybe I'm losing it? Who knows.. All I know is that I have to leave before my act starts to become something more..
Reading back to things I used to write before makes me realize how blind I really was. He has taught me how to survive as the new me and I owe him everything. A lot has changed, but I don't regret anything I have done. I have helped him get what he desires, which I also now desire more than anything.. The feeling of seeing blood leave somebody's body, it makes my heart beat a little faster. The rush I feel as I can just feel the blood just flowing freely into my mouth, as it's meant to be. The rush gets even bigger if they are afraid.. The blood flows faster then, and just feel their pulse as I get what I truly desire. People can think what they want about me.. Still doesn't change that I will do everything to get what I want.. And nobody can stop me now, except.. Maybe him..
- Not getting what she wants