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Entries #1 - #97 seem to be missing from the book.
I've lost everything... my pages... my home... my family. Lost it to those fucking assholes who couldn't settle for what they had! We didn't even have anything!
What... what do I do now?
Entries #99 - #101 seem to be missing from the book.
It's been too long since I've had a proper meal I think. I thought putting the numbers up at the top of the entry would help me keep time but turns out that was a waste of lead. I'm still pissed about leaving my pages behind, I had so much important stuff and dates written in here and now it's just all gone...... I need to find a safe place to sleep.
I feel weird. I feel like I should be more upset about losing my family. There's just... just some idea in the back of my head that they're ok... is that why I feel like this? Am I just making something up to make myself feel better about everything??? I don't know what to do anymore, It's been so long since this infection went rampant, but I still haven't learnt how to do anything to take care of myself! Talk about useless. Have I really just been relying on my parents and brother to keep me safe, did losing everything really make me realize that... can I even do anything to survive? I haven't even made successful fire by myself HELL I can't even shoot anything other than a pistol.
I don't want to die.
I wish Dad had never brought us here. It's a third world country what success can come from it? Is that harsh to write? I guess it doesn't matter not like anyone else is going to read this while I'm alive. If I could have got on the same plane that got me here and take it on the first flight out of this country I would... who actually knew there were job transfers offer things here? Like why would anyone take that? It really makes me wonder if our family was in some legal trouble or something? Like really who just goes to Chernarus for work availabilities??????????? I don't belong here... I can't even read the signs. I need to find some people who can translate... or I don't know guide? Guide me? Hm.. I wonder if someone could actually do that. I need to put some pep into my step and make and effort to find a group of people or something. Maybe by luck I can find someone.
It's been a few days since I last wrote. I literally cannot find anyone here. I hope I'm not the last person left in this stupid country on this stupid planet. WHERE WAS THE LEAVING MEMO?? DID I MISS IT OR SOMETHING? Whatever. Either way I've been able to find some food to hold me over... but I'm going to find someone... tomorrow. Tomorrow for sure.
I need to stop writing in this.