“Shoot it Yelena!” My friend yelled to me in pure panic. The look on his face equally matched to mine.
I found myself struggling to upholster my pistol from it's belt. Every yank to release my gun only made my head pound more with fear.
My heart was in my throat.
We had no idea what this was at the time. At first it didn't seem real. Seeing all the men, women and... children... stumble in such aggression to... kill us.
We did what we could...
But doing what we could wasn't good enough.
Eventually, what seemed like forever, my pistol released as I lashed it in the direction of a young girl charging at me. She was about eleven years old, looked like she had just finished brushing her teeth in the morning. Face veined and painted with dried blood. Her movement all wrong. Her attempt to kill me was a major concern. And the only thing I could do was to shoot her.
The bullet landed into her esophagus. The muffled chokes received by the small being before collapsing right at my feet.
She didn't get up... at all.
When I signed up for the CDF, this is not what I expected it to be. Murdering children... It all seemed role reversal... That was supposed to be the Chedakis job...
At that point, it was too hard to breath. Thoughts in my head of what had happened whilst I sprinted to safety just couldn't provide me any answers I searched for.
I soon made myself M.I.A to the CDF before it collapsed in the chaos of South Zagoria.
Everytime I tried to collect my thoughts, I was reminded of that day. The day I had killed that sweet innocent little girl.
I felt like a murderer and probably was.
My mind even began to turn on me.
I caved in.
I tried to cope.
But the voices always made sure I never forgot.
People Who Understand Her and Accept Her Condition
Any Forms of Music to Block Out the Voices
Being A Social Outcast Because of Her Schizophrenia
The PTSD - Any Forms of Suspicion of Her Past or Original Profession
Ignorance - Especially from People Who Are Guests in Her Lands
Lack of Common Sense
Schizophrenia: a long-term mental disorder of a type involving a breakdown in the relation between thought, emotion, and behaviour, leading to faulty perception, inappropriate actions and feelings, withdrawal from reality and personal relationships into fantasy and delusion, and a sense of mental fragmentation.
PTSD: An individual's PTSD might include symptoms such as feelings of shame, or less commonly, compulsive or aggressive behaviours, or self-destructive behaviour. These cases often interfere with an individual's personal life and thus, they are also associated with certain social patterns.
Comes Across as Quiet, Cautious or Negative but This Attitude is Redeemed because of her Paranoia of Judgement from Others
Unknown People Are Not to be Trusted
The Voices Are Wrong
Strict in Problematic Situations to Avoid Others or Herself Getting Hurt
Can Seem Very Brutal to People Who Do Not Help Any Cause