“I am constantly torn between killing myself, and killing everyone around me.”
Benji Woods was born on the 19th of January, 1996 in his home-town of 'New Orleans, Louisiana'. He grew up in a poor and struggling household, with his father being an alcoholic and his mother addicted to drugs. When his father wasn't out drinking, he'd be out on the streets trying to sell dope to pay for their bills. Benji's only real father figure was his uncle 'James', who although also being a notorious drug dealer in their area, looked out for Benji. He'd help Benji with his homework, taught him how to ride a bike and was often Benji's go-to person whenever he needed help.
One night, whilst Benji was in his room playing on his 'Game-Boy' that his uncle gave him, his father came home and went on one of his 'Drunk Rampages' again. He started arguing with Benji's mother, but he eventually got really aggressive and started punching her. One of his punches was hard enough to knock his mother straight to the floor and knocked her unconscious. Benji overheard this, and after hearing the front door close, went down to check on his mother. She was laying there, unconscious, with blood running from her nose and mouth. Benji immediately ran over to the kitchen phone and rang his uncle James, telling him to come over, before calling '911'.
His uncle James arrived before any of the emergency services did. The second he walked in he was shocked to see what happened to his sister, and immediately asked Benji how it had happened. Benji explained what happened to his uncle, and he could see his uncle beginning to shake with anger. Not even a second after the emergency services had arrived his uncle walked up to him and said; "I'll be right back", before storming outside of the house and getting in his car. The paramedics began to tend to Benji's mother, but it was to no avail, as she died in the ambulance due to internal bleeding caused by the trauma. Benji was taken to the police station, where he was questioned by to police as to what had happened at his house. He was in too much of a shock to comprehend any of the questions that were being asked to him, however, in the corner of his eye he noticed something. It was his uncle, in handcuffs, being taken away by a group of police officers. One of the police officers entered the room that Benji was in, and started talking to the chief of the police department, who was speaking with Benji. The policemen explained that they had found Benji's father, but he had been severely beaten up and nearly killed by his uncle James. The policemen said that he understands the actions, given the context, but that they had no choice but to take him in.
Benji's uncle was given 10 years of jail time for his actions, and Benji was put into a foster home, as he had no other relatives that could or wanted to take him in. Benji stayed in the foster home until he was 17 years old when he finally had a stable enough job and enough money to buy a place for his own. Benji remained scarred due to what happened in the past however, and got addicted to cigarettes and Xanax to help cope with his Anxiety and to help forget him forget the things that had happened in the past.
A year later Benji receives a phone-call. It's his uncle James, who explains that he is being released from jail and wants to speak with Benji. He goes to pick his uncle James up from the prison, and talk about what had happened on their way home. He expressed his gratitude for what his uncle had done, but feels sorry for him, as he had spent 10 years in prison. His uncle, who was visibly upset, responded to him saying; "I would've taken a life-sentence, as long as that bastard got what he deserved.".
His uncle James stayed at his place for a while, but it wasn't long until he had found a new job and a place of his own. Before he left, he told Benji to kick his addiction, as he didn't want Benji to ruin his life and health. Benji tried kicking his addicted, which almost worked due to him falling in love with someone, but he sadly got hooked again and fell into a depression when he found 2 years later that his girlfriend had been cheating on him. Benji was eventually contacted by his uncle, who found out about what happened and the mental state that Benji was in. He suggested that Benji should go out and find himself, seek out what he truly wants and what truly makes him happy. Benji agreed and decided to save up money for a trip to a foreign country. He asked his uncle to join him, but he couldn't, due to having a family of his own to look after. He wasn't quite sure where he wanted to go, but he eventually decided on a small country called 'Chernarus'. It wasn't too well known and there wouldn't be to much tourism, which Benji liked a lot as his anxiety had gotten to the point where he couldn't stand to be is crowded places. Benji booked a plane ticket and a wooden cabin inside a forest, where he planned to stay for his time there. However, we all know how this story ends.
Upon arriving, things didn't go the way they were planned. An infection plagued the country, leaving Benji stranded in a country that he barely knows, on his own, with no way out. Currently, he roams the lands, looking for his next can of almost expired beans to crack open, or for a place to spend a night. Constantly watching over his shoulder to make sure that he doesn't get robbed, or worse - killed, over that can of beans that he had just found.
Borderline Personality Disorder
A long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by unstable relationships with other people, unstable sense of self and unstable emotions.
There is often dangerous behavior and self-harm. People may also struggle with a feeling of emptiness and a fear of abandonment.
a mental disorder that causes periods of depression and periods of abnormally elevated mood.
The elevated mood is significant and is known as mania or hypomania, depending on its severity, or whether symptoms of psychosis are present.
During mania, an individual behaves or feels abnormally energetic, happy, or irritable.
Individuals often make poorly thought out decisions with little regard to the consequences.